Sometimes our first online rituals definitely go the way of chaotic feeling since we are not sure what to expect or how things will go. Last night's ritual is one that is a little more involved with responses than many of them are for sure. I am truly sorry that you experienced the ritual in this manner and if there is anything I can do to be of service or help at all please let me know.

If you would like, I can send you a version of the ritual that you can do solo as this is my normal personal Sabbat ritual for Lammas.

I hope you will give esbat rituals a shot as well as future Sabbat rituals. With one under your belt, so to speak, the next esbat may be a little more easy to slide into. Again, if I can help at all, I will be glad to help, anytime!